Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Guess whose back.!!

I know i have been away for a while and most of the time i had the writers block, had alot in my mind but didnt know how to express in words..
I was in a confusion state the past couple of months, and blogging is the only way i can release my emotions and seek therapy is come back here, where i feel safe and at ease..
I am still working for the same company that i have bitching and wining in the past entries. Never had the courage to quit, seems like they have wrapped me around their fingers but one day inshallah will have the courage to do that.
i guess am all talk, havent really worked on my goals like losing weight. Apparently feels like i have gained more since summer.Still starving myself to one meal a day plan, which is not working out at all for me. Infact am hungrier, and i get the temptations of eating more calories, then i realised the big mistake i made by consuming all those calories and then discovered bulging . Who was i kidding, i knew that wont last forever, i guess somalis cant tolerate bulimia.. that lasted a weak and quickly got bored with it,..

One goal that i accomplished is, i finally got to meet my cyber pal from ATL after chatting since May. He was everything that i ever imagine he would be. We had an awesome time, the only regret was time would not allow us and his stay was short and he had head back..
Well i hope it works, for i know not alot of long distance relationship work., I am just hoping for the best.

At the moment, its Christmas and am working, i dont care that much. Atleast i know the pay is good and anticipating for a phatter check.Although there is a bad snow storm that has been hitting the midwest for the whole weekend. My only worry is driving home with these severe conditions....Hoping for it to be better by the time ill be leaving..

So thats much of my recap, i know i left alot out... but hope ill get there in my next blog due to my work load am juggling between work and the blog. I have to get my Me time and just write whatever flows from my mind...

till next time.. adios!

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

LONG WAY HOME.

Dear Blog,
It has been forever since i last blogged, I am very sorry for I have neglected you. I have not surrendered my thoughts and feelings to you like i used to.
This week has been hectic. Days go so fast and that definately means that you have to value time and use it wisely..It also means aging and getting closer to your death bed..

I received a call from my cousin Ayan in Nairobi on Sunday morning 07/29/07, that my father was very ill. He has alot going on, He is 63 yrs old with all the"somali" sickness. High Blood Pressure, Diabetes and has the worst chronic asthma that i have ever seen.He was hospitalised since Saturday night, i feel awfully bad that i didnt do any good that same night and i was out having fun with my cousin and her friends. That is so immature of me, i should know better that i passed the age of having fun. It was one of those Saturday afternoons that you dont have plans, and we have been crashing weddings about 7 weekends in a row( i think). I know, that is absurd and over the limit. That is what i call fun, They say all work and no play makes Jack a Dull boy and thats how i convinced my self..Its all about psychology its all in the head, what one considers a good time.
My cousin Hani's best friend named Abyan, we all like to call "Her BOYFREIND". She is a tom boy and thats why we call them a lesbian couple. One is so lady like and the other acts,talks, walks like a boy..
She came and saw us all trying to grasp for fresh air, lying and chilling near the air conditioning vent just to keep cool from the humid hot weather that we have been getting lately..
She told us that there is this cool place in Columbia heights, a suburb north east of Minneapolis where alot of arabs live. There is a joint that we can chill and try arabic delicasy.. I havent had gyros and shish kabobs for long..I thought that was a good idea, Mind you i am the same girl who has inferiority complex when it comes to my weight. I just wanted to put that aside for a day and let it be, for once i wanted to enjoy the food.

We drove all the way up north, She invited one of their friends and she also came with a couple of their buddies from Atlanta vacationing here in the twin cities. Are they out of their minds coming here to vacation. While they got the clubs, go sees and all in ATL.
Well, I understand where they are coming from and they dont have enough somali population compared to MN and so they are here hunting for MEN( SINGLE). I guess thats worth it when you are single.
Once we were there,it was small joint, nice interior. It was the place to be.. Somali guys and girls all cute and dressed up smoking shisha... I almost laughed my heart out seeing people twinging their eyes and making funny facial expressions smoking that SH*. They all looked like ameteurs, I didnt even know that such a place existed.We took up two booths for we were a group of 8 girls and may i say very loud girls.
So we had to do what romans do when you are in Rome. We ordered some gyros, chicken tikka,hummus,arabic coffee.
Then came for the time to smoke and get crunked.,.The waiters were really cute and they were even belly dancing you would say that is so disgusting to see a guy shaking his ass off and doing the snake.End of it all we were enjoying the humour and we were actually having fun to say the least. I would be so disgusted if someone told me a man was belly dancing but this was fun..
They started ordering flavours, can i have one lemon, apple and mint. We were sharing 2 people per 1 shisha. I trust my cousin so we shared one, that was apple flavoured.At first "we" my cousin and I became hesitant and shy, and they started criticizing us and giving us those looks of what are you scared of. We are all in this together. I was watching my cousin,all that i could think of was our reputation and what people would think of what we are doing..I rather smoke it in my house and privately and not in public.
Abyan tried to convince me that we were all sailing in the same boat, so i dont need to worry about anything. I took the first three puffs and it was all good until my head started to spin and i started getting dizzy and my body was so weak i couldnt even pick my hands up.While i was doing this my dad is in the hospital bed trying to gasp for air for his asthma attacks. If i knew i wouldnt be doing this.
We did this while conversing, chit chatting, laughing singing we had a good time..It was almost midnight and we getting ready to leave for we had been there since 8 pm and it was time to head home, before my grand ma gets suspicious.
Driving home was fun, we jammed to Old school and singing along, i guess we had the energy because of the tobacco we consumed.
We were home by 1-1.30am got ready to bed,I was unable to sleep. My head was still spinning when in bed same was occuring to my cousin. I could feel the floor was sinking down and the ceiling was crashing down on me. We both had turns jumping and getting up, tossing and turning. The fan sounded like a helicopter propeller placed near my ear drums, The room was loud. I was not sure thats how everyone feels once you have got too much nicotine in your body.
I felt sick, horrible and so terrible. I wish i could go back in time and changed everything. I did alot of harm than good.
I finally got to sleep around 4 am and by the time it was 7am. My maternal grand mother came with the phone, saying its my cousin Ayan. I love my cousin, so i decided to speak to her although i have a splitting headache that i was unable to get rid of that early.
She gave me the news ,even before greeting me. She was in calling booth and she was charged highly per min and so she needed to get to the message asp. It was like this, "HEY, YOUR DAD IS IN ER< SEND MONEY FOR BILLS"
I told her i will go to the nearest money wiring center and i will definately call back, make sure you have your cell phone. I want to know everything thats going on."next thing i heard was silence, she hang up.
I rushed in the bathroom, Called my sisters and told them of whats happening and they should get ready for some cash.
I had to drive all the way to home get the money and drive back to Mpls to send the cash.
I tried calling home while i was on the way, They told me he was fine, I wanted to speak to him immeadiately and all they could say he was resting after a long night at the hospital and he was finally at home. They managed to pay the bills and so i told them i sent the cash and advised them, make sure he takes his rest and doesnt go to work. I am sure the car garage where he always spends his time triggered this.

I went to my grand mas, everyone waiting with my news and told them he was fine and i sent the cash and i will try calling later tonight when it will be in the morning in Nairobi and talk to him.When i called , i was already teared up and when i heard his husky voice, i broke down. He sounded so weak and lonely for we were all here and he was there by himself. He refused to move here and we miss him. Inshallah am planning to visit him by next summer inshallah.I miss him so much...
He is doing good now, and hope that Allah (swt) will keep in good health and pray for him to prosper. Inshallah Amin.!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

LADIES NIGHT??

Wednesday night,,, should be ladies night,,right...NOPE!! ( doesnt feel like that at all.) Its just one of those nights, that you dont feel like doing anything.
The weather was scary today, with alot of hail stones,thunder and lightning. I hate thunder storms and any natural disasters, I could only imagine of the worse. My family and friends always tell me that am paranoid, i like imagining my own things and that i should be optimistic.

All i can think of was a tornado coming this way, My Allah (swt) save us from destruction.I was waiting for the sirens to start ringing and follow the evacuation procedures and hide somewhere in the parking ramp down in the office building basement.

My car broke down almost 2- 3 weeks ago, i actually have lost count of how many days i have been car less. Never the less, i dont mind being without a car in the summer. Everyday my my mum comes pick me up after work and all i could think of her driving on the crucial I494 which is proned to accidents.
As i was sitting in my cubicle,Unfortunately i sit next to the window and i could see the lightning flickering and am almost shitting in my pants, scared of it striking through the window. The sound of the thunder made the whole building shake, You would think there is an earthquake.
Speaking of earthquakes, i called my relatives in Nairobi and they were telling me about the series of earthquakes that rocked East Africa in the past 5 days. Lahaula! Where are we heading , these are the signs of doomsday that is near.May Allah(SWT) save us from the sins and shaitan and guide us to the right path. It is really scary.

I managed to get thru my mum, I called her on her cell phone told her not to come this way. I would rather take the light rail is much safer. I am sure everyone is rushing to their homes. Whenever drivers know that its about to rain or snow,We get to see the true crazy drivers driving like there is no tomorrow. I tried to convince her not to come, but it was too late she was on her way stuck in traffic.

I had no idea the weather will turn out to be like this.The day was perfect before. This actually taught me a lesson of checking the weather report because the last thing i ever do or think of doing is that, the weather was perfect this morning. It was in the 80's with humidity of almost 95% which is not bad for a day in July.Then the grey clouds started gathering around 4:45 pm and everyone was googling checking whats the sudden change with the weather. There was an alert of Thunderstorm and tornado watch up to 6:00 pm. All i could imagine was my mum with her light in weight red honda civic that could easily be taken and blown away by the strong winds.
I kept calling every min, cheking on her status. Alhamdulilah, she was fine and nothing happened to her and that am happy glad to be here right now typing this blog.
It took her almost an 2 hrs for a thirty min drive, from Minneapolis to Bloomington.We decided to use the back roads instead of taking the freeway home. Although it will take us forever,but being safe than sorry.

I was home by 7:30pm. My younger brother was at home waiting for me. I forgot all about the promise i made to him,I was supposed to take him for his driving test tomorrow. He wanted to do some touch ups with his parking coz he failed the first time.No time to relax or change. Since it stopped raining and the weather was back to normal. We decided to go to the back parking of the mall in our neighbourhood.We practiced for about an hour and half.I am so tired am typing this with one eye trying to stay awake.
Am i glad am off tomorrow. Still i got to wake up early and got to be in Plymouth by 8 for the test. Then after that, probably sleep and relax, take it easy rent a dvd or probably go to the movies and watch Harry Potter, my co workers are crazy over that flick. I just want to see what they are so excited about..

Very Important.,

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته الطيبات وبعد
Brothers & Sisters,
Holy Prophet (Sala Allah Aleh Wasalam) said, stop doing everything during the Azan even reading the Quran, the person who talks during the Azaan will not be able to say the Kalma-e-shahadat on his/her death bed.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

ABOUT ME!

The X next to the sentence = i have done it


(x) Smoked a cigarette ~
( ) Drank so much you threw up ~
( ) Crashed a friend's car
(x) Stolen a car -My parent's car
( x ) Been in love
(x ) Been dumped
( ) Been laid off/fired ~
(x ) Been in a fist fight ~ 2
() Been shot at
() Been stabbed
(X) Snuck out of your parent's house ~ PARTY ERA
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school ~
(x) Seen someone die sadly
() Been to Canada ~
() Been to Mexico ~
(x) Been on a plane ~
(x)Been lost ~
(x) Been on the opposite side of the country
(x) Swam in the ocean (my feet)~ yes
(x) Felt like dying ~ was dying
(x) Cried yourself to sleep ~ yep
( ) Played cops and robbers naked?
(x) Recently colored with crayons ~ With my baby cousins -7 yrs, 5yrs and 18 months
() Sang karaoke
(X) Paid for a meal with only coins ~ who doesn't
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't*-*smoked
(x) Made prank phone calls ~ EVERYDAY
(x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose ~
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue ~
(x) Danced in the rain ~
() Written a letter to Santa Claus ~ WHO?
() Been kissed under the mistletoe
() Watched the sun rise with someone you care about or love ~ (
(x) Blown bubbles ~
() Made a bonfire on the beach ~
(x) Crashed a party ~
(x) Gone roller-skating ~ years ago
(x) Ice-skating ~ frozen water...hell no
1. Do you have any nicknames? PLEASURE HALIMO...
2. What is your favorite drink? H2O
3. Tattoos? No
4. Any piercing? yes, ears
5. How much do you love your job? Funking HATE IT!
6. Favorite vacation spot? home with my family
7. Ever been to Africa ? Yes, KENYA
8. Ever steal any traffic signs? YES
9. Ever been in a car accident? NOPE
10. How many doors does your car have? 4
11. Salad dressing? vinegar and Oil
12 Favorite number? 1
13. Favorite holiday? any day that I do not have to cook!
14. Favorite food? PILAU with guacamole
15. Favorite Day of the week? The day before my day off)
16. Favorite brand of body soap? handmade (oatmeal, milk and honey) lady in Bloomington,carols daughter
17. Favorite Tooth Paste? Toms sensitive
18. Favorite smell! Lavendar
19. What do you do to relax? Talk to a Sheikh.. He knows who he is, wherever he is
20. Message to friends/family reading this? all I can be is me like it our not!!
21. How do you see yourself in 10 years? balanced and peace of mind
22. What do you do when you are bored? not allow myself to be bored

This is my life....-- I don't mind when people talk about me. It lets me know that I'm on your mind and I'm your #1 priority in life.

JUST FOR LAUGHS,.

TECHNOLOGY
After digging to a depth of 100 meters last year, Russian scientists found traces of copper wire dating back 1000 years, and came to the conclusion that their ancestors already had a telephone network one thousand years ago.
So, not to be outdone, in the weeks that followed, American scientists dug 200 meters and headlines in the US papers read: " US scientists have found traces of 2000 year old optical fibers, and have concluded that their ancestors already had advanced high-tech digital telephone 1000 years earlier than the Russians."

One week later, the Kenyan newspapers proudly reported the following: "After digging as deep as 500 meters, Kenyan scientists have found absolutely nothing. They have concluded that 5000 years ago, their ancestors were already using wireless technology.

Na ndio maana najivunia kuwa Mkenya!!!