When you think the word "friend", The first thing that pops to your mind is someone who will always be there for you through thick and thin and in good times and bad.
So who is a friend?
In my opinion, i don't believe if there is a such a person who exists. A friend is actually your parents,siblings.A friend should be your guardian angel. Everyone wants to take an advantage of one another. When you actually see someone getting close to you, hanging out with you just know something is up.
I can actually say a good friend, is the one who you grew up with since kindergarten or your early child hood and has been in your life till now. They have stuck by you through sunshine and rain.
Life is all about ups and downs and risks. Without them, it will be as boring as you can imagine.
You have to really choose your friends carefully and wisely.
I can say this with experience, I have trusted allot of people in my life to the point that i can never trust again. They have let me down and I lost hope. This wasn't a one time experience. I should have learnt through my mistakes, but i was so naive and i got bitten. My excuse is since i dont have an older sister i could talk to, advise me and warn me;thats the reason of my fall. I had to learn the hard way, I kept repeating the same mistakes over and over. Well, Once bitten, twice shy...third time Shame on you. I am taking the initiative and advising all the girls out there. Keep all the secrets to yourself and never share with anyone. Once you tell someone its no longer a secret. Keep in mind there are consequences with everything in life. Play smart and keep Allah in everything you do, and Inshallah you will succeed in life. For he will guide you to the right path.
My father is one of the greatest guy i know, actually he is the greatest guy i will ever know.
He used to see me bustling with girl friends, alot of girls in my room chit chatting, giggling and ofcourse this was all about boys. He was really worried of what i will turn up to be, for he was a single father taking care of three daughters and one niece so a total of four girls ranging 17-22. He had the hardest job and task one could ever have.
He had to juggle between his work and being a home maker since my mom had to move to another country.There is no way anyone could trust girls in a house together for a long period of time without supervision. Alot of somali elders, be parents, guardians dont believe in freedom for young girls they believe they should be protected from the hungry wolves.
Being in a Muslim all girl school, definately you will make friends and every one in school had different personalities.There were the smart ones (they know the purpose of going to school) and there were the other ones(hippies). Majority of them, were only thinking of marriage and were readily engaged just waiting to get done with their exams and planning their weddings. Suprisingly i couldnt understand why should one go to school at all, If all this is implanted in their heads.
My school was popular for it had all the fly and hot girls and so every boy in town wanted to get a piece of us. Then, School was all about boys.. and believe me that was trouble. Wherever there is a lot of girls just run for your life.
One of my dearest friend got engaged. Her fiance was what everyone could dream of.He was Ok looking, i wont say fly but just average. He's successful and single. This *jama* guy was actually abroad finishing his studies. As soon as they were both done, their union will commence.
One day my so called best friend called me and asked me to play a prank on her boy. Since she didnt know him that well due to the fact that their union was all planned out by their parents. She was not feeling him at all and it was all about getting blessings from her parents.
She asked me to call her *MAN* and pretend that Iam into him and the fact that i like him alot and want to date him. For being a good friend that I am, I agreed to this plan. She needed a push to make her feel and realise that she wasnt making the biggest mistake in her life once he co-operates and acknowledges that he is unavailable. That was what we were hoping for,.right??
Little did i know that this plan was actually wrong and wasnt a good idea.I called * jama* up and really talked to him, he was nice and may i say very inviting. which was a bad sign for starters. I told him all that crap that you can imagine; i saw him on the mall, and i couldnt help but to notice him, he was on my mind and ofcourse that i want to meet him and get to know him better.
The big question popped up, " Hey Babes, Are you single??" I was expecting the big N to the O. and he told me straight up and frankly that he is very single and ready to mingle,available, no strings attached bla bla. I almost chocked, speechless and in total shock. I couldnt believe my ears.I had to make him repeat his sentence all the time just to be very clear. He had no idea, that we were setting him up.
I didnt know what to do, i was confused so i decided to talk to my cousin about it. She was not supportive and very stark raving mad of what i have done. Not to forget my freind was waiting for my response regarding this matter. Should i tell her, should i not.??i couldnt sleep that night..
The next morning i called her up, she couldnt wait to talk to me. I could tell in her voice.I didnt want to disappoint her and tell her that this guy is a DAWG and so i told her what her ears wanted to hear. (your man is very faithfull)At that time, I knew i put myself into a double jeopardy.
This guy was on top of the world,cloud nine. He was so into himself and he couldnt stop calling me.i ignored his calls alot of times and then one day i was with his *fiance* my friend at a wedding reception and he called her, they talked it was so so lovey dovey.A few min later, my cell rings. Caller ID is private. So i decide to pick up not to realise that the end of the line would be *him*. The line was not clear and ofcourse at any party they would be noises, music. This guy was really smart, so he immeadiatley knew that i was at the same wedding with his future wife and so he called her up and told her that he would come pick her up when she is ready to go.
Hours later he called her up, let her know that he was outside the parking lot waiting for her. The prank happened about two months before the party. So this incident was long gone and forgotten.
My friend asked me to follow her outside. I didnt know that her potential husband was outside, so i see an average guy in a blue truck, so she intoduces us and we shake hands. i stepped back and i was so uncomfortable. Not so long ago, i was talking to this guy i just didnt like his presence there.
Seconds later, My hand bag starts making some sounds,yeh my phone was ringing. So he immeadiately knew i was the one who pranked him. I couldnt tell who was calling me, because of the caller id was private.On their way home, he started to say all the things he could possibly say about me. He told her that we went out for a date,clubbing with me and i asked him out and i insisted to dump his fiance and he should marry me instead.
They say a coin has two sides and so she didnt know who to believe and she opted to pick and choose her partner and not me.I dont blame her for that,I know i would have done the same thing if i was in her position.She was blinded by love and the fact that i wasnt honest to her on the get go. All these things wouldnt have happened only if i was a true friend. I have learnt a big lesson, that honesty is always the best policy.Although we havent been tight like we used to and of course she wont trust me like she used to. She will be always in my heart.
The last thing i wanted was to be branded the title " MAN SNATCHER". I have alot of respect for her. I did this for her, to be a friend when shes in need and that was what i was trying to accomplish.According to my bad judgement i was not what i was supposed to be,
"A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FREIND IN DEED"!
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Summer Busters
When i grow up, i want to be? Hmmm! Let me think,, Movie Critic..
The reason behind this is generally because of getting paid ofcourse ,There is always cash $$ behind everything in life nowadays.
Secondly, The film insdustry is one of the industries that do well and generate alot of turnovers.Being a studio exec is just plain the same as being an oil tycoon somewhere in the Middle East or like the southerners down in Texas.
I want to move to Hollywood and get paid for just watching movies and give criticsm... be bad or good..
This summer is all about trilogy and am not all for that.. Spiderman 3, shrek3,oceans 13,pirates of the carribean, fantastic 4, Live free or die hard,just to name a few. What is going on? Are we going to get the same sh** ( excuse my french ) next summer.? We are paying $8-10 per movie pass and not to foreget the treats e.g pop corns.
If I was the critic now i wouldnt be given the studios the thumbs up to release these trilogies for the movie fans to watch. They should get fresh writers, new ideas and not the same old bum.
I always like Martin Scorcese and I am happy that he finally got the oscars he deserves for the job well done in the Departed.He got nods many times before, but always Spielberg, Lucas and even Eastwood beat him. This is his year!!.. Patience is really a virtue.
I am also happy Forrest Whitaker scooped the best actor award, he really killed the role as Idi Amin on the Last King of Scotland. The accent, Oooh La la! he just sounded like a Ugandan especially a nubian. Leonardo DiCaprio is hot as fire and cool as cucumber and i may say he is really talented. For those who havent watched Blood diamond, i recommend that movie. This year is all about accents to me. If you try to immitate an african you are just the bomb diggity. This is why am mad at the movie Studios for not making and releasing good flicks anymore, There are no flicks that you are eager to watch except for Transformers that is set for July4th. This is because of the hot cast Josh Duhale,Shia Lebaouf,Tyrese Gibson and not to forget the awesome special effects that it has.
Well, we'll see how it turns out to be,So Im opting for the best. We just need something different and unique.
By the way, Bruce Willis just needs to retire or follow his fellow actors like the likes of Arnold Schwazzeneger and Mel Gibson. They have retired with style and not redoing the movies that have established their hollywood status like Terminator or Mad max respectively.
With all that said, am not feeling this summer busters...
The reason behind this is generally because of getting paid ofcourse ,There is always cash $$ behind everything in life nowadays.
Secondly, The film insdustry is one of the industries that do well and generate alot of turnovers.Being a studio exec is just plain the same as being an oil tycoon somewhere in the Middle East or like the southerners down in Texas.
I want to move to Hollywood and get paid for just watching movies and give criticsm... be bad or good..
This summer is all about trilogy and am not all for that.. Spiderman 3, shrek3,oceans 13,pirates of the carribean, fantastic 4, Live free or die hard,just to name a few. What is going on? Are we going to get the same sh** ( excuse my french ) next summer.? We are paying $8-10 per movie pass and not to foreget the treats e.g pop corns.
If I was the critic now i wouldnt be given the studios the thumbs up to release these trilogies for the movie fans to watch. They should get fresh writers, new ideas and not the same old bum.
I always like Martin Scorcese and I am happy that he finally got the oscars he deserves for the job well done in the Departed.He got nods many times before, but always Spielberg, Lucas and even Eastwood beat him. This is his year!!.. Patience is really a virtue.
I am also happy Forrest Whitaker scooped the best actor award, he really killed the role as Idi Amin on the Last King of Scotland. The accent, Oooh La la! he just sounded like a Ugandan especially a nubian. Leonardo DiCaprio is hot as fire and cool as cucumber and i may say he is really talented. For those who havent watched Blood diamond, i recommend that movie. This year is all about accents to me. If you try to immitate an african you are just the bomb diggity. This is why am mad at the movie Studios for not making and releasing good flicks anymore, There are no flicks that you are eager to watch except for Transformers that is set for July4th. This is because of the hot cast Josh Duhale,Shia Lebaouf,Tyrese Gibson and not to forget the awesome special effects that it has.
Well, we'll see how it turns out to be,So Im opting for the best. We just need something different and unique.
By the way, Bruce Willis just needs to retire or follow his fellow actors like the likes of Arnold Schwazzeneger and Mel Gibson. They have retired with style and not redoing the movies that have established their hollywood status like Terminator or Mad max respectively.
With all that said, am not feeling this summer busters...
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Summer Loving**
It Sunday 06/24/07, The third official day of summer.
The days are longer and the nights are shorter. People can actually do something after work, go to the park, boat riding and definately do the summer favourite "cook out". Well i cant help but to wonder what my family members are upto, while i ponder my thoughts in my work cubicle being the only member who works odd days of the week. The sky is clear and blue with temperature of 85 degrees F.As i am looking outside the window, I can see couples walking their dogs, family sitting down for a picnic in the park thats across my work building. They must be having a good time,How i wish i could be there..:(
Then i realised, is this what every 25 yr old does. My life revolves around my work and my home. I neither have female friends nor boy friends. Not that am complaining, I have already had experiences with female buddies and am not looking forward to go back in my college days. Right now, I have no strings attached. I have no reason to lie to my parents that I am hanging out with my buddies at a wedding and yet i was getting my groove on in the clubs.There were times that i ran out of excuses and i had to wait for everyone to sleep so i could jump off the balcony to go party. Believe me this is just peaceful, but sometimes you get tired of peaceful and the multiple personality freak who i like to call "HALIMO" wants to come out. what do you do in such cases?
My mother is actually my best friend, Isn that weird?HAHA!
Thats why i have decided to write my inner feelings, thoughts to the blog so that i can release an escape "halimo" in me that i cant share with my HOYO.
I tend to give "Halimo" some loving and attend some of the family weddings. Although i am not a big fan of one. All somali weddings seem to have the same theme. Let me break it down for you.
1. The MAMA's get to get their groove on with BURAMABUR and HEELO dances ( hope thats the spellin, forgive my somali). chanting and praising the couple, family and last but not least the CLIMAX( tribes). Women get to dance and shake their tail feather just to show off their jewelry and what they have on.Mind you this starts around 10 pm.
2. Then comes the dinner, that is served around midnight when the couple have already arrived.
Alot of the younger generation prefer coming to the weddings at this time so that they can pass the noise of the traditional dances.Dinner consists of samosa, chicken legs, Anjera Habashi, alot of spices, curry which means heartburn at 1.am.I always pass that, dont want to spend the rest of the night living in the bathroom
3. After everyone is full , Then the somali band( FANANIIN**, hope that is the spelling) find their way through the stage to entertain us with old somali songs that have been remixed to fit the current beatz. Although i can say that is the best part of the night. T his will go on till the wee hours of the night, maybe even till morning prayers. Never the least 90% of the attendees have to work the next day. For what price do we have to torture ourself for the name of GOOD TIME.
In my opinion, gossiping is one of the reasons people come to the weddings.They want to know what the bride wore,how she looked.? Is the groom worth her or vise versa.? How much did it cost to make the wedding?. Last but not least, Just a recap on everybody' life e.g "You know who got divorced, and somebody's husband married a 2nd wife etc". That is all BS to me.
As they say if you are in Rome you got to do what the romans do".
Every weekend in Summer, there must be two weddings or more here in Minesotta. Its known to be the **STATE OF UNION**. If you want to get hitched you better start packing, and visit. One piece of advice there are alot of wolves here, Make right choices and you will do good.
I love SUMMER, its just full of drama,,,
~Long Distance,
The days are longer and the nights are shorter. People can actually do something after work, go to the park, boat riding and definately do the summer favourite "cook out". Well i cant help but to wonder what my family members are upto, while i ponder my thoughts in my work cubicle being the only member who works odd days of the week. The sky is clear and blue with temperature of 85 degrees F.As i am looking outside the window, I can see couples walking their dogs, family sitting down for a picnic in the park thats across my work building. They must be having a good time,How i wish i could be there..:(
Then i realised, is this what every 25 yr old does. My life revolves around my work and my home. I neither have female friends nor boy friends. Not that am complaining, I have already had experiences with female buddies and am not looking forward to go back in my college days. Right now, I have no strings attached. I have no reason to lie to my parents that I am hanging out with my buddies at a wedding and yet i was getting my groove on in the clubs.There were times that i ran out of excuses and i had to wait for everyone to sleep so i could jump off the balcony to go party. Believe me this is just peaceful, but sometimes you get tired of peaceful and the multiple personality freak who i like to call "HALIMO" wants to come out. what do you do in such cases?
My mother is actually my best friend, Isn that weird?HAHA!
Thats why i have decided to write my inner feelings, thoughts to the blog so that i can release an escape "halimo" in me that i cant share with my HOYO.
I tend to give "Halimo" some loving and attend some of the family weddings. Although i am not a big fan of one. All somali weddings seem to have the same theme. Let me break it down for you.
1. The MAMA's get to get their groove on with BURAMABUR and HEELO dances ( hope thats the spellin, forgive my somali). chanting and praising the couple, family and last but not least the CLIMAX( tribes). Women get to dance and shake their tail feather just to show off their jewelry and what they have on.Mind you this starts around 10 pm.
2. Then comes the dinner, that is served around midnight when the couple have already arrived.
Alot of the younger generation prefer coming to the weddings at this time so that they can pass the noise of the traditional dances.Dinner consists of samosa, chicken legs, Anjera Habashi, alot of spices, curry which means heartburn at 1.am.I always pass that, dont want to spend the rest of the night living in the bathroom
3. After everyone is full , Then the somali band( FANANIIN**, hope that is the spelling) find their way through the stage to entertain us with old somali songs that have been remixed to fit the current beatz. Although i can say that is the best part of the night. T his will go on till the wee hours of the night, maybe even till morning prayers. Never the least 90% of the attendees have to work the next day. For what price do we have to torture ourself for the name of GOOD TIME.
In my opinion, gossiping is one of the reasons people come to the weddings.They want to know what the bride wore,how she looked.? Is the groom worth her or vise versa.? How much did it cost to make the wedding?. Last but not least, Just a recap on everybody' life e.g "You know who got divorced, and somebody's husband married a 2nd wife etc". That is all BS to me.
As they say if you are in Rome you got to do what the romans do".
Every weekend in Summer, there must be two weddings or more here in Minesotta. Its known to be the **STATE OF UNION**. If you want to get hitched you better start packing, and visit. One piece of advice there are alot of wolves here, Make right choices and you will do good.
I love SUMMER, its just full of drama,,,
~Long Distance,
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Phatabulous
Dear Blog,
I am back, I was just hear with you yesterday and I cant get enough of you,miss you too death already. As you know i got alot going on mentally, emotionally and physically. Alot of you know my emotions by now.
What I mean with physically is i have gained alot of weight lately and there is nothing I can do about it. I have tried everything I could possibly imagine of,be slim shakes,pills, exercise, starving my self to death and it all seem to boost up my metabolism and instead gain more weight. BUMMER!
With the media, tabloids going on with celebrity stars weighing size 2-0 this really promotes young girls to think they are not beautiful when they are curvy, It is really absurd of where we heading now.
Lately, The Somali Community( the younger generation) is adopting this western culture, Beauty now lies with how Pin stick pencil you can be. The curvier(fatter), the uglier you are. We shouldnt be using this principle, and judge people by the way the appear. They say ** DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER**. Beauty lies inside,its what lies beneath your soul. There is no one who can take it away from you. I like what Jen Hudson, America Fererra, Mo'nique and Tyra Banks have done lately.They have given hopes and inspired alot of lost girls out there and motivated them to believe that they can do it too.
I still cant help it and i have this addiction of losing weight so bad...due to my "medical conditions".
I have been having some health issues lately. My bowel movement is a little off( sorry for being to open). My Dr's ruled and diagnosed me to be pre diabetic if I am not careful of what i chose to eat or rather not eat.They also ruled that I have hyper Thyroid, My God! I have never felt healthy like this before i feel like every body part is functioning and yet they say all this. What are they trying to do to me, Kill me without having my own *duplicate* at this fragile age of 25.
Dear Blog, Weight is the biggest challenge am facing right now. If i had lost a few pounds, i will be so confident to do whatever and I know that is one of the major reason why my love life is down and awful...Anyway with enough said, Am going to sign out thinking am I feeling better?Do i inspire? Is there anyone, someone who feels the same.?
Yours truly...
Long Distance..
I am back, I was just hear with you yesterday and I cant get enough of you,miss you too death already. As you know i got alot going on mentally, emotionally and physically. Alot of you know my emotions by now.
What I mean with physically is i have gained alot of weight lately and there is nothing I can do about it. I have tried everything I could possibly imagine of,be slim shakes,pills, exercise, starving my self to death and it all seem to boost up my metabolism and instead gain more weight. BUMMER!
With the media, tabloids going on with celebrity stars weighing size 2-0 this really promotes young girls to think they are not beautiful when they are curvy, It is really absurd of where we heading now.
Lately, The Somali Community( the younger generation) is adopting this western culture, Beauty now lies with how Pin stick pencil you can be. The curvier(fatter), the uglier you are. We shouldnt be using this principle, and judge people by the way the appear. They say ** DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER**. Beauty lies inside,its what lies beneath your soul. There is no one who can take it away from you. I like what Jen Hudson, America Fererra, Mo'nique and Tyra Banks have done lately.They have given hopes and inspired alot of lost girls out there and motivated them to believe that they can do it too.
I still cant help it and i have this addiction of losing weight so bad...due to my "medical conditions".
I have been having some health issues lately. My bowel movement is a little off( sorry for being to open). My Dr's ruled and diagnosed me to be pre diabetic if I am not careful of what i chose to eat or rather not eat.They also ruled that I have hyper Thyroid, My God! I have never felt healthy like this before i feel like every body part is functioning and yet they say all this. What are they trying to do to me, Kill me without having my own *duplicate* at this fragile age of 25.
Dear Blog, Weight is the biggest challenge am facing right now. If i had lost a few pounds, i will be so confident to do whatever and I know that is one of the major reason why my love life is down and awful...Anyway with enough said, Am going to sign out thinking am I feeling better?Do i inspire? Is there anyone, someone who feels the same.?
Yours truly...
Long Distance..
Friday, June 22, 2007
Where there is a will,there is a way
Dear Blog,
The last time I was confiding in you i lost all hopes in life. I have been so cruel and depressed being 25 female, somali girl and still single. This fact is tormenting and killing me slowly day by day.Its a big blow below my belt. Most of my peers are either married with kids ranging from 5 yrs to 2 yrs or going to school about to graduate or even have graduated.
Let me go and refresh you and take you way back of when my life so innocent and sweet. I just migrated to USA from Kenya roughly 3 yrs ago. I moved at the age of 22 yrs and by that age, I could say i have lived my life to the fullest, felt like i have lived 200 yrs. I have dated every guy i can possible think of, rich poor , young, married and single. You name it I have done it. I know i havent made the best decisions in my life, i regret most of the stuff i did. They say in order to enjoy life, you got to take the risk. Life is all about risks. Through this experience it has really made me grow to a wiser and stronger woman(LADY) I am and have become now.
The only way to get by and be happy was to move away from anything that was clinging to my past. In short, get out of Eastleigh Nairobi. Turn a new leaf in a new country, new people and new environment. Well, Guess what? I was so wrong. In fact i have never been so dismantled in my life, so bored ,so depressed. I was lonely, cold in a foreign Country nothing to do. The worst thing is i came when it was winter. 1st time from a tropical country where seasons are either from Long rains and short rains or sunny with temperatures ranging 70- 80 degrees F 10 months in a year.That was a big change in my life.
I moved to Minneapolis, MN one of the coldest cities in USA. The biggest attraction is the Mall of America. It is the biggest mall in the whole United States but it hasnt moved me at all. It reminds me of the bustling flee market back in Nairobi called GIKOMBA known for its second hand goods.It was one of the busiest open markets i could think of. I just hate places with a crowd, noise makes me spin and go crazy. I just didnt feel the mall at all to me they just over did it.
Mn is known to be the state for laid back people not alot of things happen here. It is well known for Agriculture, and The 10,000 lakes. You cant compare Minneapolis to LA,NY , Las Vegas and Miami its completly the opposite. You wouldnt even think that these cities are even goverened with the same President George W Bush.
Minesottans have no idea what goes on this world, The highlight of the news is WEATHER.What will be the weather be tomorrow so that they can wear either flip flops or boots?. They have no idea what goes on beyond the State border leave alone the world. This is the most pathetic situation i have ever seen. They would think only whats in style, and pure celebrity gossip. who is Paris Hilton dating and how Angelina Jolie took Brad Pitt away from Jen Aniston?.what happened at TOMKAT's wedding.
I dont know where am going with this. It just leads me from one topic to the other. Thats how my mind is.,Its just big puzzle that needs some one to help and guide me.
Dear Blog, I know i have to get mylife straight and on track. Only Allah Knows best and with prayers. I know i will pass, survive with flying colours.
Thanks for being the shoulder i can lean on. Promise to come back.
The last time I was confiding in you i lost all hopes in life. I have been so cruel and depressed being 25 female, somali girl and still single. This fact is tormenting and killing me slowly day by day.Its a big blow below my belt. Most of my peers are either married with kids ranging from 5 yrs to 2 yrs or going to school about to graduate or even have graduated.
Let me go and refresh you and take you way back of when my life so innocent and sweet. I just migrated to USA from Kenya roughly 3 yrs ago. I moved at the age of 22 yrs and by that age, I could say i have lived my life to the fullest, felt like i have lived 200 yrs. I have dated every guy i can possible think of, rich poor , young, married and single. You name it I have done it. I know i havent made the best decisions in my life, i regret most of the stuff i did. They say in order to enjoy life, you got to take the risk. Life is all about risks. Through this experience it has really made me grow to a wiser and stronger woman(LADY) I am and have become now.
The only way to get by and be happy was to move away from anything that was clinging to my past. In short, get out of Eastleigh Nairobi. Turn a new leaf in a new country, new people and new environment. Well, Guess what? I was so wrong. In fact i have never been so dismantled in my life, so bored ,so depressed. I was lonely, cold in a foreign Country nothing to do. The worst thing is i came when it was winter. 1st time from a tropical country where seasons are either from Long rains and short rains or sunny with temperatures ranging 70- 80 degrees F 10 months in a year.That was a big change in my life.
I moved to Minneapolis, MN one of the coldest cities in USA. The biggest attraction is the Mall of America. It is the biggest mall in the whole United States but it hasnt moved me at all. It reminds me of the bustling flee market back in Nairobi called GIKOMBA known for its second hand goods.It was one of the busiest open markets i could think of. I just hate places with a crowd, noise makes me spin and go crazy. I just didnt feel the mall at all to me they just over did it.
Mn is known to be the state for laid back people not alot of things happen here. It is well known for Agriculture, and The 10,000 lakes. You cant compare Minneapolis to LA,NY , Las Vegas and Miami its completly the opposite. You wouldnt even think that these cities are even goverened with the same President George W Bush.
Minesottans have no idea what goes on this world, The highlight of the news is WEATHER.What will be the weather be tomorrow so that they can wear either flip flops or boots?. They have no idea what goes on beyond the State border leave alone the world. This is the most pathetic situation i have ever seen. They would think only whats in style, and pure celebrity gossip. who is Paris Hilton dating and how Angelina Jolie took Brad Pitt away from Jen Aniston?.what happened at TOMKAT's wedding.
I dont know where am going with this. It just leads me from one topic to the other. Thats how my mind is.,Its just big puzzle that needs some one to help and guide me.
Dear Blog, I know i have to get mylife straight and on track. Only Allah Knows best and with prayers. I know i will pass, survive with flying colours.
Thanks for being the shoulder i can lean on. Promise to come back.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Perfect Stranger,
Dear Blog,
They say there is always first time for everything. I hear you are pretty good shrink and I hear you listen to alot of bloggers out there who need some release therapy that we all are looking to get.
I am 25 yo F living somewhere in the Land of freedom and Opportunity. I still havent gotten that opportunity that everyone is searching for. Maybe i missed it,It passed while I was unaware.As they say Opportunity knocks once at a mans doorstep.Question is Did it knock? and if it did, when was it? Was I too blinded to realise that I missed the Man of dreams unknowingly?
My mom always say you will always know the right man when he comes by. I always wish that every guy i meet is the one that i would end up with, But No. They always turn out to be something else just after a few days of getting to know them e.g Stalkers,liers,cheaters and just too filthy to even think of dating. Why am i guilty everytime someone approaches me and i dont feel anything towards him.Why do i always fall for the wrong guys,be either married or single.With that history of my life, I tend to have a phobia. I can never trust anyone anymore.I feel like everyone is the same they all want one thing and one thing only.
Dear Blog, I need helP!!
Should i start Online dating,with the hi technlogy now and Hi speed internet in every 8-10 household. Should this be the resolution to my ongoing loneliness.My friends are all married and seem to be leading a very healthy lifestyle and seem to be happy... What is wrong with me.?I have been a people pleaser all the time and no one has given me anything in return. What happened to the saying ** The more you give, The more you get**. Why are all the good guys taken? Do you know the ratio of woman to man is 6:1. Do the maths?For all the single females out there can relate to my story....
They say there is always first time for everything. I hear you are pretty good shrink and I hear you listen to alot of bloggers out there who need some release therapy that we all are looking to get.
I am 25 yo F living somewhere in the Land of freedom and Opportunity. I still havent gotten that opportunity that everyone is searching for. Maybe i missed it,It passed while I was unaware.As they say Opportunity knocks once at a mans doorstep.Question is Did it knock? and if it did, when was it? Was I too blinded to realise that I missed the Man of dreams unknowingly?
My mom always say you will always know the right man when he comes by. I always wish that every guy i meet is the one that i would end up with, But No. They always turn out to be something else just after a few days of getting to know them e.g Stalkers,liers,cheaters and just too filthy to even think of dating. Why am i guilty everytime someone approaches me and i dont feel anything towards him.Why do i always fall for the wrong guys,be either married or single.With that history of my life, I tend to have a phobia. I can never trust anyone anymore.I feel like everyone is the same they all want one thing and one thing only.
Dear Blog, I need helP!!
Should i start Online dating,with the hi technlogy now and Hi speed internet in every 8-10 household. Should this be the resolution to my ongoing loneliness.My friends are all married and seem to be leading a very healthy lifestyle and seem to be happy... What is wrong with me.?I have been a people pleaser all the time and no one has given me anything in return. What happened to the saying ** The more you give, The more you get**. Why are all the good guys taken? Do you know the ratio of woman to man is 6:1. Do the maths?For all the single females out there can relate to my story....
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