Where there is a will,there is a way

Dear Blog,
The last time I was confiding in you i lost all hopes in life. I have been so cruel and depressed being 25 female, somali girl and still single. This fact is tormenting and killing me slowly day by day.Its a big blow below my belt. Most of my peers are either married with kids ranging from 5 yrs to 2 yrs or going to school about to graduate or even have graduated.
Let me go and refresh you and take you way back of when my life so innocent and sweet. I just migrated to USA from Kenya roughly 3 yrs ago. I moved at the age of 22 yrs and by that age, I could say i have lived my life to the fullest, felt like i have lived 200 yrs. I have dated every guy i can possible think of, rich poor , young, married and single. You name it I have done it. I know i havent made the best decisions in my life, i regret most of the stuff i did. They say in order to enjoy life, you got to take the risk. Life is all about risks. Through this experience it has really made me grow to a wiser and stronger woman(LADY) I am and have become now.

The only way to get by and be happy was to move away from anything that was clinging to my past. In short, get out of Eastleigh Nairobi. Turn a new leaf in a new country, new people and new environment. Well, Guess what? I was so wrong. In fact i have never been so dismantled in my life, so bored ,so depressed. I was lonely, cold in a foreign Country nothing to do. The worst thing is i came when it was winter. 1st time from a tropical country where seasons are either from Long rains and short rains or sunny with temperatures ranging 70- 80 degrees F 10 months in a year.That was a big change in my life.
I moved to Minneapolis, MN one of the coldest cities in USA. The biggest attraction is the Mall of America. It is the biggest mall in the whole United States but it hasnt moved me at all. It reminds me of the bustling flee market back in Nairobi called GIKOMBA known for its second hand goods.It was one of the busiest open markets i could think of. I just hate places with a crowd, noise makes me spin and go crazy. I just didnt feel the mall at all to me they just over did it.
Mn is known to be the state for laid back people not alot of things happen here. It is well known for Agriculture, and The 10,000 lakes. You cant compare Minneapolis to LA,NY , Las Vegas and Miami its completly the opposite. You wouldnt even think that these cities are even goverened with the same President George W Bush.
Minesottans have no idea what goes on this world, The highlight of the news is WEATHER.What will be the weather be tomorrow so that they can wear either flip flops or boots?. They have no idea what goes on beyond the State border leave alone the world. This is the most pathetic situation i have ever seen. They would think only whats in style, and pure celebrity gossip. who is Paris Hilton dating and how Angelina Jolie took Brad Pitt away from Jen Aniston?.what happened at TOMKAT's wedding.

I dont know where am going with this. It just leads me from one topic to the other. Thats how my mind is.,Its just big puzzle that needs some one to help and guide me.

Dear Blog, I know i have to get mylife straight and on track. Only Allah Knows best and with prayers. I know i will pass, survive with flying colours.
Thanks for being the shoulder i can lean on. Promise to come back.